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Today, April 16, would have marked 20 months of my relationship.
I don’t say that forlornly - it is sad, yes, but my tone as I write this is really one of amazement. Amazement at how, even when you think you are certain of how things will end up, they often turn out more differently than you ever could have imagined.
I never would have guessed that I would ever be in this place. I never fathomed that my relationship would end, that the most important person in my life would become just someone that I used to know (excuse the cheesy song reference). Someone who just nods when we see each other in passing… someone that I no longer share even my plans for the day with, let alone my hopes and dreams.
It truly is astounding how radically things can change. How quickly things change.
And it’s also incredible how God fills up those sad, empty spaces with beautiful things.
It’s almost paradoxical, really - although my romantic relationship has crumbled into utter ruin, all of my other relationships have flourished. Profoundly. I feel closer to my family (even though we still talk to each other the same amount as before), and my friends have come alongside me so strongly and sweetly and I feel so, so blessed. God is allowing me to pour into the same quantity of relationships that I had before, but I think now He’s really driving home the point of quality. Two friendships in particular (one, my best friend, and the other, an old roommate) have blessed me so much, and I am so grateful for these women that God has drawn up in my life to walk through all of this craziness with. While I didn’t neglect these relationships before, God is bringing them to a focal point in my life, and it is incredible to feel so content in this place, with these people.
Although I feel that I have lost so much, I don’t feel - by any means! - that my life is any less full. And that is truly such a gift from the Lord.
…I came that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. - John 10:10
This says everything.
A lot of things are hard.
Being single again is hard. Read: being single is not hard. I loved being single - it was a really fun season and I have so many great memories from that time! Being single again is hard. It’s hard to redefine your former “we” as now just “me”; it’s hard to fill your “we” time with “me” time or with “them” time and not feel like something is missing. It’s also hard to remember that that gets better with time, and hard to imagine that there is something better than what you had.
Breaking old habits is hard. Breaking old habits that you loved is harder.
Missing someone is hard. Missing someone and knowing that they’re probably not missing you is harder.
Change is hard. Moving on is hard. Dying to yourself, dying to your desires, giving up the things that you are passionate about and dreamed about and hoped for… so hard.
Following Jesus when things are going great is easy. It’s easy to trust in God when everything is going smoothly, grandly, just how you want it to! But we are human, and we naturally resist change. So much of that comes out of fear, and so much of it comes out of our selfish natures - we want what we want, when we want it and how. It’s just how we are. And that makes this so, so hard. In my head, I know that God has a plan and a purpose- and a more beautiful one than my own plan for myself, at that! But in my heart, it is hard to lose and to let go and to move on from something so big.
But I am thankful that I don’t have to do these things on my own. It’s not my strength that enables me, but a strength that is much, much greater. There is grace for me in these struggles, and new mercies come every morning and I reflect on new victories every evening. And it’s all because of the miracle that my God, who knows my every fault, flaw, and failure, loves me, and my heart finds rest and strength in Him to take each new step on this hard, hard journey.
Philippians 4:12-13
“Send me anywhere, only go with me. Lay any burden on me, only sustain me. Sever any tie, but the tie that bind me to you” -David Livingstone
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